gathering

meet up with ying2 n head down to town to find dear dear n andrew... had dinner at kobayashi n saw kelson n her gf... feel kinda weird cuz nvr contact so long liao... b4 tat i tot i saw mabelin at taka.... n i kept callin her name but realise is not her ...WAH LIAO DAMN PS HAHA *blush *



anyway after that head to j8 with ying 2 and sarah... went to coffee bean for a drink n cake n realli had a nice n fun time ... NOT ENUFF TIME TO CHAT !!! (comment by ying2) but realli everytime not enuff time to chat, time pass soo fast... realli love chattin with them ...



and ying2 flyin off this sat... hope im not workin n can send her off... her is midnite flight...

and finally ying is passin mi all 4 books of twilight saga tml ^^ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA



pic time =) (pic is not in sequence =x)


PS: mabelin thank for ur encouragement... i'll stay positive and always rmb i got u guy by my side =) not gonna waste any time depressin anymore n thank helpin mi wit the code... =D






SARAH LOOK SOO ER XIN HAA

candid shot

love this pic alot....

xin ying n ying ying ^^

takin pic outside dear's workin place

the twin ... ^.^

st james

sat- went to chalet den after tt went to st james power house lol andrew n sarah get fuc*ing drunk n waste our entrance fee... we bought a bottle of vodka @ $201 n finish within 15 to 20 min by the 5 of us... KNS...drinkin like no tml... FUN..the couple sittin next to us were laughin at us.... cuz we are just one bunch of crazy n funny ppl...anyway afraid i might got asthma attack so stop drinkin after finish the bottle( cuz shld avoid cold drink) ... cuz we were havin competition ... who drink the last is a tortoise ...wtf ... stil play truth or dare... poor dear dear have to strip for mi HAHAs... think i have too much of alcoholic drink, i think dear dear so sexy sia ... =p

anyway i thought can finally have fun at the dance flr however, we went to vivo after tt n NEVER WENT BACK!!! cuz andrew kept vomiting ... we were stuck at vivo's toilet for like centuries haha still saw xiaxue n her bf mike....

anyway to get some fresh air, daniel kor drove us to ecp... had supper at mac n went to slack at beach...it feel nice to be at there at such hour... but there are soo many ppl ..wah lau eh mid nite stil got so many ppl... sian ...

went home after tt... n slp like pig... oink oink




sun- have to wake up early even tho tired like hell... to vacuum n clean my room cuz biao ge, gina jie, dear n andrew comin our house... mah jong sessiion again ... lol no win no lose fer mi..after that the 4 of us ( us twin plus our bf ) took 2 scooters n went to buy dinner...

gonna turn pig liao ...ask the 2 boys order the zhu cao ..they order soo much aha...

anyway they stay overnite bside deardear cuz he working tml... wah miss him badly after that ... sob sob...

tue ( which is tml ) - meetin up with yingying =)

wed - goin out wit dear dear n not goin to the class bbq... I WANNA WATCH THE COFFIN THAT MOVIE...



PS :
-sarah wat my big ass?? just happened i bent over take my high heel den accidentally hit andrew...haha when i turn back he slp on the flr...haha this part make mi laugh cuz when he n i stil at ite, after tkd trainin he oso like this fell to the flr HAHA somemore 2 times... haha my sir stil said mi evil... but del said u more evil HAHA
-thanks mabeline ... for being there fer mi =)
-IM BROKE!!!! lolx

drunk

will gettin drunk able to ease my sorrow for awhile?

tonight goin clubbin and of cuz ... my intention is to :
drink to enjoy
dance to feel closeness with whoever i want ( but of cuz oni dear dear that i desire... )
high to feel happiness
drunk to feel numb
hangover to know im still able to feel pain and alive

FUN IS ALL I SEEK!!!


but always conscious ... i've learn my lesson...

S.H.E-612 星球

滿園玫瑰我以為找到我那一朵
認真愛了卻狠狠刺傷我的雙手
責備什麼人也沒有用
玫瑰都紅 難免看錯

望著天空愛是否活在童話裏頭
小王子說有些事流浪過才會懂
原來每顆心都有個洞
找不到真愛 會一直寂寞 oh~~~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別榭太快 請你等等我

擦乾眼淚一個人漂流在這宇宙
小王子說愛一定開在某個角落
路上相愛的人那麼多
我會幸福嗎 在什麼時候 oh~

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快 請你等等我

我但願有一個人在等我
在屬於我的612星球
好讓我忍著痛也願意往下走
不快樂至少要有夢

一定會有一個人在等我
無條件擁抱著我的所有
相遇前我還要翻越多少山丘
花別謝太快 請你等等我



credit to : http://asukaworld.blogspot.com/2008/09/she-612-lyrics.html

a way to understand optimism

FINALLY ...HOLIDAY IS HERE!!!
FINALLY ...IM INFORM THAT ONE MONTH LATER I CAN GO FOR SCANNING!

Reading 'The Last Lecture' and there are 2 pages of ' A Way to Understand Optimism' ... it is really funny how this guy dealt with optimism... i would like to try that too... but no choice i'm much poorer than he is....

Advice from the doctor - "It's important to behave as if you're going to be around awhile"
The author wrote - I was already way ahead of him
Anwser to the doctor - " Doc, i just bought a new convertible and got a vasec-tomy....."

extracted from the book of 'The Last Lecture'

love reading this book as i learn alot.

anyway holiday is here and there are soo many events coming up...

-tonight goin to chalet (happy birthday yiying^.^) and clubbing ( meeting up with dear,daniel and andrew ... hope nothing happen... lolx... cuz yong cong they all also goin )
-meeting up with ying ying b4 she went china for half a year for attachment....
-daniel kor will be flying to vietnam on mon and back by thur however ying will be flying off earlier on thur... might be sendin ying ying off on thur and b4 that receiving kor from vietnam...haha on the same day ... so we might have a lil gathering... if there is no time constrain...
-baby c is missin us badly at usa... she soooo cute n poor thing ... keep calling our name... omg i miss her sooooooo badly... i want to go usa !!! lolx ok la this shldnt b in this list hahaa...
-outing with class w14g... bbq session n night cycling...hope i can make it...
-outing with edelyn n gan jie ^.^
-outing with lao gong jenny....
-mayb goin vacation ^.^
-sad.... kbox session with daniel and vicky cancelled...
-almost 4got family outing... mayb ton and pitch tent n bbq ... wah soo lookin forward to it...hope it dun rain....
-I WANT GO ICE-SKATING !!! ANYONE??? lolx...


IM GONNA LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!! FUN IS ALL I SEEK NOW!!!!

exhausted

getting tired and fragile...
it seem clearer to me that mayb im right... or mayb im hallucinating?
what the use of trying hard in sch??
im draggin my legs to sch everyday...
i dont see any point anymore....
nobody seem to notice wat goin on ...but i dont care anymore
i juz wanna hide in my fantasy world... by slping....
today they blast techno in class however i fell aslp... it amaze charisma how i can fell aslp...

im having nightmares everynite thinkin i might be gone soon...
or gone without saying goodbye...
contemplating ...

i wish it is not cancer...


PS: tml alena havin o level ... all the best to her....

inconsolable

what could it be? i dont know.


all i know is to have optimistic thinking... tho recently cousin's frenz just died of this.


what could it be? i wish i know


all i have to do is to wait ... but every mini-second is precious to me...can i stil wait that long?


what could it be? love


thanks for everyone giving mi the love i want.


what could it be? hatred?


if the result is negaive...will i have hatred for living such a short life ( and live in hell? lol juz kiddin)


what could it be? time?


there are soo many things i still want to do... and i have to take care my family... marry to dear dear aka clifford aka ah boon aka boon boon aka sweetie aka sa gua aka silly boi aka s hole ( haha love givin him all types of names )....


what could it be? the book


the last lecture ( the book titled) what can i give to you guy as the last present?


what could it be? money

if true then will be usng money like my parents own a bank ...damnit

what could it be? pray


all i have to do now is pray hard...





PS:
- hash hash... another me.... we are inseparate definitely ... i love u
-dear dear thanks for everything ... u r perfect just need to change ur temper... think back at the pool this afternoon... i just being cheeky ... n think what happened next.... sry i cried....just too many emotions comin up... just today i find out i got asthma attack which is trigger by couging... den u-know-wat.... how can i still controll ??
sorry i just lose it... feel like im standing on the edge tryin hard to balance ... tryin very hard to hide my feeling... tryin hard not to think of anythg and live happily just for the moment... tryin hard to get hold of myself... but it is soo hard ...

anyway thanks for ur understandin ... n ur unlimitless love... i love u muackx...

-it is realli hard to control my tears when u noe someone is cryin for u and yet u do not wan the rest to get upset too... but i did it...

plagiarism

ytd touch on the topic of plagiarism. There are no ppt but the class is conducted this way : debating. IT WAS FUN!!! but due to sore throat ... i have difficulty in speakin up... but i do rebut... n make my stand clear... and shoot question... stil can rmb when i was in pri sch...

it was fun having ur frenz playin the guitar n we sing along... i was there playin romance d'armour with kenvin's guitar n kenvin decided to play tears drop on my guitar... den hui loon, gina n mi sing along ... it was fun but i have sore throat thus cannot sing out loud... SAD!!! i lose my voice...


我失声 NOT 身hahas


i wanna meet up wit ying ying soon !! saw hui loon reading twilight saga den i rmb ying said wanna lent me!!


after sch saw alena... wah it feel like century since i saw her...miss her alot... cuz no hp n laptop i totally lose contact with all my frenz =x after t meet up wit dear dear n andrew. watch Max payne that movie...
i think i will rate 5 out 10 stars ... shld have watch butterfly lover =x


anyway dear dear gettin sweeter n sweeter ... even my mum, cousins and mei compliment him... i cant believe he is mine.. i cant believe i can have such a wonderful boyfriend... i cant believe we alr decided to get marry with each other when we are 25!! heh heh... there are soo many things i wanna do with him ... like travelling ard the world etc...

simply cant live without him anymore =x


btw for the past few weeks...every weekend, cousin patrick, gina jie and ah boy will c0me our house n overnite n have our mahjong lesson... it was FUN!! i totally love them comin our hse ... love them to bits...
den last week cousin c come n overnite our house for a few days with cousin patrick n gina jie, ah boy, dear dear n andrew... I'm soo happy cuz the house is soooo lively with babies runnin ard the house and all the laughters... n omg ah boy n baby c is sooooooooooooo cute!!!!!!



realli miss them when they went back...



oh ya... dear n andrew soo sweet... they went to sheng song to buy 2 cartons of drinks can for us after sending us back home recently... it realli surprise us n mummy... they are soo guan.... den huiqin sms me... tot my house gt celebration cuz she saw 2 strong men carryin the cartons of drink cans.... HAHAs... soo jiao



oh n one sad news... XX's baby die... his heart beat jus stopped in the womb... i was soo shock to hear tt... even doctor oso dun noe the reason... why like tt???
sarah,alena n i almost cried... we keep taking care of her... n wish both mother n baby healthy ... i stil wish to be the god mother... !!
anyway... later goin her house to visit her n buy some tonic fer her... with dear , sarah n andrew...

anyway gtg prepare... everythg will turn out fine


一嘴乾一杯

CB

CB... my laptop spoile again?? WTF!!! HOW MANY TIMES LIAO??!!! same old problem...
if it is virus, then what kind of virus soooo powerful can destroy the hardware??? and the technician did not realise??
BLOODY FRUSTRATED!!!

anyway.... the link below will link to sarah blog... go check wat i did ytd =)

http://missxinn.multiply.com/journal/item/111/Updates

feel like crying ...

3.10'08



too tired to think... and shut myself up... anyway had breakfast with my always-hyper-darling alena during the 1st break. haha see her always brighten my day...

den 2nd break, peh arina eat... and oso talk alot...



walk to interchange with alena, arina and olivia...n had a bar of chocolate that perk mi up=x keke dreamt of dear dear when taking nap on bus! haha ..in the dream i'm looking at his face ...v close n then i sayang AND I WOKE UP!!! yikes... i miss my dear dear alot =x



anyway alight with alena and continue the journey home alone... almost miss my stop cuz kept falling aslp...





2.10'08

(this paragraph rephrase from sarah's blog)

At second break, meet up with sarah n andrew n go a nearby mama shop to buy cigarettes. Saw Yasin there. Yasin was with 2 other guys. They were playing dunnoe wat thing. Those lil kid play de. And they won a barbie doll sharpener. They are like wondering who to give and sarah said to them give her lor. HahahaX... she need it for the eye brown pencil They were like luffing and pass the sharpener to her. When they turned to leave, one of the guys turned and shout his friend's name to her. Sooo funny lah. LolX


Andrew waited 2hours for sarah and remind of deardear.... when i was a promoter at sheng song near my hse, he WAITED 8 HOURS THERE FOR ME!!! OMG HE IS SWEET!! He will keep looking at me and shop around and talk to mi and pass me drink and stuff.... OMG HE IS SOOO GOOD!!!!


Anyway after that headed down to Bugis with dear dear, sarah and andrew. By right, going town area de. However, Andrew and Yong cong gt daiji there thus nt goin there. went to shop and bought a few things b4 we dine at HK cafe... slack n bullshiting den went to meet yong cong and play pool...

RANDOM PIC














AND DANIEL KOR BACK FROM AUSSIE TILL FEB...yay yay ^.^ and he made vid that combine alot of videos that we took for the past years! after hearing this...dun noe why i have such strong mix feelings... HAPPY AND SORROW...

happy that my precious kor is back and did somethg special for us... yet devastated for...hmm i dun noe why i feel dis way... ( there will be many many upcoming outing with diff grp of frenz...wit kor...yeah )

maybe because the fact that im old. maybe we cant go back to the past when we went club and pub every weekend. maybe some people changes soo much. maybe i can only reminiscence. maybe the fact that i had been through soo many things. maybe the fact that i'm relieve that i got dear dear now.

even now i think back when i got backstabbed and cried alone at the dark toilet and dark staircase... tho im lucky enuff i gt frenz like christ to help mi up...
i think back when i had attachment at cisco... the tough time i had... the harsh environment changes me... and teaches me alot of stuff...

AND NOW SARAH GAVE ME DIS PIC OMGGGG!!!

at ecp with sarah, andrew, justin(ex bf...which is super super tall...183cm ...rofl) and me 2 years back...

I SHALL NOT POST THE PIC DUE TO SPECIAL REQUEST FROM CLIFFORD aka dear dear =x

and this... sarah, andrew, clifford( dear dear ...current bf ) and me



I've change so much... all the guy in the pic above all like or love mi b4... but did not turn up quite the way i thought it will... but happy with the ending... dear dear with mi and sarah with andrew...

and here a pic like 3 4 years back... all went separate ways... migrate to usa n australia ... guess this is life... everyone have to deal with separation ...




here a pic took ..when kor and mi went to ecp to exercise...haha stil can rmb he roller bladin while carried my bike on his shoulder...and a aunty went pass say WOAH..lolx... miss the old days...n a pic he took at aussie...





enuff of the past... what matter is future...

I CANT WAIT TO UNLOCK MY SIDEKICK LX!! here a pic of my sidekick lx and iphone





addicted to dis song by S.H.E latest album



n currently reading this book called 人生中不可不想的事 ...not bad sia...

and watching mars... lan qui huo...and goin to watch yukan club... haha heard from ying that mike he got act inside sia...omg i cant believe he know how to speak jap...

n so mani movies i want watch... quarantine, 保持通话, The house benny and liang zhu ( acted by wu zhun and ah sa )!!!

ok think i go practise guitar liao... super sian now =x


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天亮了- she
合:天亮了天亮了
地球又转一圈了
世界还活生生的存在着
还活着没想到我还活着

ella:穿越一场海啸什么滋味
我终于亲身体会天崩地裂
筋疲力尽灵魂不在身体里面
然而万岁万岁终于和你有个了结

hebe:你一边我一边
我们的世界最好别再重叠
也别再回想那个太长太长的昨天
太多爱太多泪别再这样浪费

合:天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐

天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是更渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了
s:结束一段感情当然不像
瞒个假那么方便太多时间
太多随便堆在回忆那间房间
但是忍耐一定不去碰它就不危险

h:你没变我没变
我们到最后才能懂这一点
人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿
好可惜我和你许了不同的愿


合:天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了

既然我还幸运的活着

当然要全力以赴去快乐

天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的

什么痛都是更渺小的

看太阳不是又升起来了

s:我的心是我的不会再给你了
h:我是我自己的我很快乐

筋疲力尽

3+ hours sleep...

time will never wait for us....

WED 1.10'08
slack at home .... play guitar and mah jong ... no win no lose heh heh

TUES 30.9'08

went to ecp with sarah's classmate and dear dear and andrew... it was a fun and nice day. finally get to exercise a bit... =)


went to cycle






play mahjong at the pavilion.. ziqi bought small mahjong tiles...


Then went to play pool... and it is super cold when playing pool cuz dear dear and i run all the way from arcade to mac AND it is raining heavily =X
b4 that, dear dear and i went to play pool too and catch a SUPER SUPER CUTE TOY then had dinner at burger king while sarah n andrew had subway...

cute right ^^

cabbed home ard 1+plus...

to deardear: tho we had a lil dispute but i believe it oni draw us closer. To understand each other more ... thanks for volunteering being the stupid one in the relationship... u noe wat i mean... i guess it is the way it work in a relationship. sorry for being so weak and selfish... but dont worry i'll learn to compromise too... try to be the type of girl u dream of .... but of cuz to a certain extent ... i have my own opinion and principle too... nevertheless i deeply believe we will last forever ....

MON 29.9
Finally sarah n i not late for sch ... lol gina was surprise that i reached on time haha...
anyway, went to take my laptop at funan with andrew and sarah after sch... WAH FINALLY MY LAPTOP 'RECOVER' .... and went ard peninsular plaza but did not get to see the guitar cuz running late to meet deardear ....HOWEVER....

someone work over-time wil not give his gf a call ..hai wo run all the way there n miss call him 36 calls...f*Cking worried u noe... but i forgive him for his reason is reasonable and oso he apologise ... and he look super nice in that black long sleeve shirt ... heh heh =p in additional, im happy that he is hardworking...oh and he saw a caucasian lady chao gen... the lady do not wear any bra and she bent in front of him... eh ... free por*?? lolx i wasnt angry cuz it is not my bf wish to see all tis...

had dinner at bishan and tried the spicy bbq... woah woah it super hot!! i can feel my sausage lip =x then catch

PAINTED SKIN

it is nice and at a point i cried... the husban's love for his wife is sooo strong that nothing tear them apart.. omg it is sooooo touch... and afterward when the four of us cabbed down to boat quay, sarah breakdown on cab... think she stil missin him...

time pass soo fast.. 2 years back at ecp, when i still a temp tkd chairman, organised tkd bbq at ecp... in the end it turn out to be a personnal bbq due to the bad weather... justin ( my ex bf ) and a few of my close frenz turn up... justin, sarah, andrew, del, naren( bouncer ) and some tkd frenz...
tt time sarah and samuel breakup, andrew keep comforting her... now 2 yrs later... at ecp, sarah and sam breakup, oso andrew keep comfortin her ...haha it is funny how life keep beating around the bush... and end up andrew n sarah tgt...

haha how come i talk till here but anyway let jump back to where i've end...

meet up with rion and the others at plush bar... it is rion's frenz bdae... and i cant believe i saw tian li there... her bf is their frenz oso..but working so i never get to see him...and she still got stay in contact with gan jie ... lol still can rmb when in sec, more than 10 girls always get tgt at a secret place during recess time... time pass so fast... had a good chat with her...
and oso get to know this girl Ruby... she is super friendly... we played direction and i drank quite alot... lolx..abit dizzy... den the 3 of us went to tiolet...thik ruby is drunk or wat ... she ask mi to go the same cubicle ...she said it is possible for 2 girls to share a toilet bowl... lolx... but i cant figure it out how it work thus i reject her...

anyway ... ruby n edelynn(tian li) has a beautiful n good voice... and it is realli nice to know them... that nite 2 guy kanna possess again... =x
ruby n dear dear has to stay away juz in case she kanna possess again and dear dear is tiger ...

haha i just realise i typed soo long ... okay think shall end here... here the pic...













reach home pretty late... and slept the moment i lied on my comfortable bed ...

28.9
went to kallang leisure park with siying, serene, rachel, hong bin didi, youwei and rache's frenz... it is fun day but i think the price is a bit ex... $17.50 for 2 hrs ... unlike the one at jurong ... 4 person for $36 and no time limit... however chris n rachel think kallang better .. but anyway will go ice skate soon... addicted to it... i realise ice skating is WAY EASIER THAN ROLLER BLADING!!! know how to ice skate yet dont know how to blade... it sux =x my inline skate is rotting in the store room ....

after skating, went to watch F1 final... woah the engine sound is soooooo loud ...siok... initially was standin oppo pan pacific building... but then serene find a better place fer us... haha... anyway let the pic do the talking =)

oh n goin to ice ksate soon ... rachel, christ n yu fei wan to ice skate too...





















waiting for dad to come back... im waitin for the crab heh heh =p

and andrew got 2 dai ji tdy... dun noe why i think back ... in daniel's car i cried ... i cried in front of him bcuz of someone who do not love mi at all...im stupid enuff to trust that he truly love mi... but in fact he stil love his ex... im happy that i made the right choice...or else i would have not meet my prince charming

and counting down... the rtn of kor kor =)