After so many years...

心真的很烦。可是我以看透了。。。 我根本不在呼了 。。。 这样的我比较快乐。可是心很痛。

My boyfriend, clifford, is really very good and sweet. Even after 3 years...

Today i'm really very unhappy and upset. Then he said to me "他不爱你，让我来爱你". I almost cried out on the spot.

When i came home, I told Sarah some of my thought and she finally told me what that person said about me. I almost cried out too.... But i suppress because this only makes me stronger.

I can't describe how my heart hurts right now. It feels like it is tearing apart... I wanna cry now but i can't. I'm not in the right place. I wanna drink to drown my sorrow.