Nokia 5730 Xpress Music Phone!!!

Recently I'm really tired. Guess looking at the codes makes Amblyopia worse therefore right eyes watery all the time.. worse blurry images. Wearin the spectacles that my bf bought look nerdy but hack care!!
So basically i'll be sleepin at home during weekend and wed... Soo tired =x

Lack of life!

Anyway, will be joining another competition soon. I will not be demotivate by the last competition!! Take it as a experience...

A list that i procrastinate for what seem like centuries:
- PP
- studying for UT3
- studying BIRT ( for work )
- lookin in detail about the competition

Should get myself working soon...

Btw i sooo look forward getting myself nokia 5730!!! Was thinking of nokia n97 but there are just too many negative comments about that phone and i do not want a new phone that with a lot of bugs and might have a loose part inside the phone and you can hear it when you shake the phone. Yikes that thought just me turn me off... And i will buy a bluetooth stereo headset for my new phone: Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset BH-504... I SOO SICK AND TIRED OF THE WIRES!! Always entangled with my other devices' wires!!


So nokia 5730 is my 1st Xpress music phone and im soo happy i finally decided to buy this phone cuz b4 that, i keep doing research about the latest phone like sony ericsson xperia x2, nokia n97, palm pre, iphone 3gs, nokia e72 blah blah... and a few days back dear just bought sony ericsson xperia for $500.


I really like that phone but i dun realli like the colour they offer... but guess i'll either choose pink or red. Seriously i cant wait to buy that phone cuz that phone can listen to music up to 25 long hours!!!!!! COOL!!!


And whats more is that Sarah mayb buyin the same phone as me...so i guess we can play n-gage together in n-gage arena!! WOOOHOOO!!!


Clifford really detest that phone sayin it is ugly n bulky but after he see the specs of that phone, he actually thinks that phone is good except its appearance. Hahax.. hey dear, at least i get good phone that i will be able to use ALL the functions ok!! Some ppl just buy cellphone for the sake of cool looking and stuff but they never use the function at all!!


For more infor about that phone click here :Nokia 5730

Actually wanna ctrl-a, ctrl-c and ctrl v...but the list of specs is just too long .. so put a link.


Beside looking forward buying that phone, im lookin forward goin oversea with the girls ( w66d )!! Sarah now planning the trip with Joanne. Cant wait to go shopping. BEen ages since I shop like one crazy bitch. I think the last time i acted like a bitch is @ China.

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Really feelin down today, mayb bcuz of that fact that love is fadin n i can sense it. Not that we quarrel but i dun even noe how to put it. Or mayb i think too much. TOday is a bad day for me!!

I think im suffering a illness called low self-esteem

SYMPTOMS OF LOW SELF-ESTEEM :

1. Makes negative "I am" statements. [x]
2. Fears new experiences and changes; lacks trust. [x]
3. Has exaggerated responses to defeats or disappointments; wants to be perfect, but sees self as far from perfect. [x]
4. Frequently boasts; exaggerates successes to cover up feelings of inadequacy. [x] ( is tellin my mum n bf boasting? )
5. Eager to please; strong need for approval and constant support.
6. Neglects physical appearance to an extreme degree. [x]
7. Demonstrates poor eye contact. [x]
8. Strong need for material possessions. [x]
9. Reluctant to express own ideas; lacks belief in self. [x]
10. Lacks accountability; feels hopeless. [x]
11. Lacks energy; passive; sees small task as very large and intimidating.
12. Low level of self-awareness; uses lots of energy to maintain a false image. [x]
13. Excessively anxious. [x]
14. Overly sensitive to criticism, but overly critical of others.
15. Psychologically isolated; lacks a supportive network. [x]
16. Has frequent psychosomatic complaints.
17. Habitually puts others down.
18. Focuses on the past.
19. Apologizes excessively; lots of negative self-talk. [x]

How i wish i am not me.




Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again...

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again...

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight