home alone again

overnite at dear dear's house last nite n guess wat?

i got 9 FKIN mosquito bites!!! JI DAN GAO!!

and dear dear did not get a single bite! WHY?

THE REASON IS SIMPLE BCUZ THE WHOLE NITE, HE TOOK AWAY MY BLANKET!!

and it is rainly heavily! sob sob!! :'(

DEAR DEAR BIG BIG BIG BULLY!!! still can luff this morning!

anyway dear dear sent mi home den went to work and i spent the whole day slackin again. LOLx can slack better quickly slack cuz alot of stuff coming liao.

will b busy from sun onwards..

tml ( fri ) - Joanne's bdae ( pub at boat quay wit the gals )
sat - rush to buy bbq stuff and mummy is back from 4 days trip to genting highland
sun - chalet + mummy's bday HHOOORRAYY!!
mon - chalet + buyin new phone!! dear said for xmas present haha soo happy!! NOKIA 5730 HERE I COME!!
tue - book out + meeting with boss + competition's workshop in sch ( realli hope i can make it )
dunnoe when is zoe and mei yan's bdae party! den continue is dear dear bdae party!

got to add on to my list: SAVE MONEY FOR DEAR DEAR PRESENT!!!

talking about chalet, i better go note down things to buy by tonite.. Jarrel comin overnite so can discuss wit them. better this way...

gtg ciao ciao n nite nite

New blogskin

I've changed to new blogskin cuz... nvm! Even that thought makes mi wanna puke. Yikes

testing

this is a test ...
repeat a test

be one's own woman

be one's own woman!!

tis is soo disturbing

FEEL FKING DEPRESS AND TRAP AND STRESS NOW KNN

cheerio

CHEERIO!! BRB! IM GOING CRAZY!!!

PAY BACK TIME

SWEET REVENGE!

shopping with da hui n xiao hui

After web multimedia's ut3, went to ION with da hui, xiao hui and joanne. But b4 tt went to da hui's house to put laptops 1st.

anyway, after the interview at taka plus met dear dear for awhile, we went to ION for dinner. Had Su.. eh eh eh lolx i cant rmb the name..but anyway the food is quite nice but way too salty and joanne's soup is way too sweet! Everything is good except the price... Dint noe they charged 4 service charged as 10% and GST as 7 %!!! Tho ex but it is still fullfillin :P

Went to shop after Joanne left, da hui bought 2 pair of shoes at Rubi and one purse at mjphosis. I bought a wallet @ mjphosis too! Decided to pass my Guess wallet to my mummy =) i noe i very sweet haah .. kiiddin la!!

Anyway, reached home around evening. Was alone at home again... n i dun reallli like that idea. Sooo lonely!! cannot call dear dear somemore( he working ). Slack here and there till mummy is back den i went to take a 'short' nap haha...den woke up got black pepper crabs, bbq chicken wings and laksa with lotsa of big prawns for supper!! LOLX yuummmmyyyy! Then realised all the food were cooked by Jarrel's grandma!! PRO!!

After supper, im here blogging. keke soo full!!

oh Jarrel overnite again... how i wish dear dear oso overnite. Missin him badly =x


wwaahhh llllaaauuuu iii ssoooo waannnaaa ggeetttt myysellff a caarr!! AT DIS UNEARTHLY HOUR, DEAR STILL AT LOYANG DA BEI GONG TEMPLE WITH ROGER, DANIEL N IDK WHO LA!!!!

geez... i sooo gonnnaa get my car license sooonnn!!!

anyway think i heading to bed soon ... soo tc everyone. And rmb to cover with blanket ..is raining heavily now. SLp tight tight dun let bug bite =)

hush hush ( i will survive)

Lyrics

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, i never needed strength
My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, i take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
I never needed words
I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way i let go
From everything i wanted when you came along
But i'm never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eye's hurt, hand's shiver,
So you will listen when i say
Baby

I don't want too, stay another minute
I don't want you, to say a single word
Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say because,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

First i was afraid i was petrified
Kept thinking i could never live without you by my side
But i spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong
But i grew strong i learned how to carry on

Hush, hush, hush hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken baby
Oh no, not i
I will survive
As long as i know how to love
I know i will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
And i'll survive
I will survive
Hey hey..

Hush, hush, hush, hush
There is no other way, i get the final say,
I don't want too, do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush, hush, hush, hush
I've already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush, hush

Sluggish

No mood for everything... I need motivation. I need motivation to study!!

New BLOGSKIN created by me!! and Filming in sch tdy

Today, the whole class went outdoor to film for our theme for the problem statement. I had alot of fun being the producer, director and camera lady.

Melinda really good @ acting Faci hahax... and other 2 team mates are good actress too.. Our theme is about smoking in RP! And our filming location is the toilet. So ya like you thinking right now... the toilet is smelly and noisy. Every now and then there is people coming in and out of the toilet, making our filming harder.
Well all i can say is that we put in our effort and really work hard.

Anyway, went out during the 2 break time with Melinder and we chat alot. lolx.. i think she is a beautiful fierce lady ...somehow i think she has a similar character as my cousin. Anyway, today i had a great day.

And at night, Shu hui sms me saying she will make simple breakfast for me. So sweet of her...aww melted lolx...

Nokia 5730 Xpress Music Phone!!!

Recently I'm really tired. Guess looking at the codes makes Amblyopia worse therefore right eyes watery all the time.. worse blurry images. Wearin the spectacles that my bf bought look nerdy but hack care!!
So basically i'll be sleepin at home during weekend and wed... Soo tired =x

Lack of life!

Anyway, will be joining another competition soon. I will not be demotivate by the last competition!! Take it as a experience...

A list that i procrastinate for what seem like centuries:
- PP
- studying for UT3
- studying BIRT ( for work )
- lookin in detail about the competition

Should get myself working soon...

Btw i sooo look forward getting myself nokia 5730!!! Was thinking of nokia n97 but there are just too many negative comments about that phone and i do not want a new phone that with a lot of bugs and might have a loose part inside the phone and you can hear it when you shake the phone. Yikes that thought just me turn me off... And i will buy a bluetooth stereo headset for my new phone: Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset BH-504... I SOO SICK AND TIRED OF THE WIRES!! Always entangled with my other devices' wires!!


So nokia 5730 is my 1st Xpress music phone and im soo happy i finally decided to buy this phone cuz b4 that, i keep doing research about the latest phone like sony ericsson xperia x2, nokia n97, palm pre, iphone 3gs, nokia e72 blah blah... and a few days back dear just bought sony ericsson xperia for $500.


I really like that phone but i dun realli like the colour they offer... but guess i'll either choose pink or red. Seriously i cant wait to buy that phone cuz that phone can listen to music up to 25 long hours!!!!!! COOL!!!


And whats more is that Sarah mayb buyin the same phone as me...so i guess we can play n-gage together in n-gage arena!! WOOOHOOO!!!


Clifford really detest that phone sayin it is ugly n bulky but after he see the specs of that phone, he actually thinks that phone is good except its appearance. Hahax.. hey dear, at least i get good phone that i will be able to use ALL the functions ok!! Some ppl just buy cellphone for the sake of cool looking and stuff but they never use the function at all!!


For more infor about that phone click here :Nokia 5730

Actually wanna ctrl-a, ctrl-c and ctrl v...but the list of specs is just too long .. so put a link.


Beside looking forward buying that phone, im lookin forward goin oversea with the girls ( w66d )!! Sarah now planning the trip with Joanne. Cant wait to go shopping. BEen ages since I shop like one crazy bitch. I think the last time i acted like a bitch is @ China.

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Really feelin down today, mayb bcuz of that fact that love is fadin n i can sense it. Not that we quarrel but i dun even noe how to put it. Or mayb i think too much. TOday is a bad day for me!!

I think im suffering a illness called low self-esteem

SYMPTOMS OF LOW SELF-ESTEEM :

1. Makes negative "I am" statements. [x]
2. Fears new experiences and changes; lacks trust. [x]
3. Has exaggerated responses to defeats or disappointments; wants to be perfect, but sees self as far from perfect. [x]
4. Frequently boasts; exaggerates successes to cover up feelings of inadequacy. [x] ( is tellin my mum n bf boasting? )
5. Eager to please; strong need for approval and constant support.
6. Neglects physical appearance to an extreme degree. [x]
7. Demonstrates poor eye contact. [x]
8. Strong need for material possessions. [x]
9. Reluctant to express own ideas; lacks belief in self. [x]
10. Lacks accountability; feels hopeless. [x]
11. Lacks energy; passive; sees small task as very large and intimidating.
12. Low level of self-awareness; uses lots of energy to maintain a false image. [x]
13. Excessively anxious. [x]
14. Overly sensitive to criticism, but overly critical of others.
15. Psychologically isolated; lacks a supportive network. [x]
16. Has frequent psychosomatic complaints.
17. Habitually puts others down.
18. Focuses on the past.
19. Apologizes excessively; lots of negative self-talk. [x]

How i wish i am not me.




Linkin Park - Breaking The Habit

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again...

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again...

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight