Sunday, May 31, 2009

life

everyone is trying to understand life... but to me... i try not to understand it... i will try to feel it...






i dont like whenever i feel sad... cause i will feel so lost and unwanted... i hate it... the feelin is so strong that sometime i will feel that my existence is so extra...

好无助





the reason i work so hard in class bcuz... i feel im wanted either by frenz or family... i feel that i have a purpose of living...






i feel soo sad... i feel like crying...my uncle lying in hospice waiting for his time to come... he asked about Clifford... he never asked to see anyone but he asked for dear dear... !!


must quickly take dear dear to see him... or else...


i dun want to regret anythg in this life


i wonder how can the others be sooo cold-blooded... ??!! not a word of concern?? tt is why sometime i hate ...!!






anyway went to watch terminator salvation at bishan ... it is sooo nice... i rate it 8/10..then Jason drive us home....






my heart aching soo badly... the image of my poor uncle lying in hospice..!!

Saturday, May 30, 2009

finally a good rest


it has been so long since i have a good slp! 

and last night not only do i have a good sleep ( i slpt for 12 hours!! ) and oso a very very sweet dream... im sooo in love in the dream... and i will never 4get this dream.. !!

anyway .. ytd stay at sch till quite late again... was discussin abt the competition's concept and the platform we using .... there are mr pang, joel, shu hui, winnie, joanne and me in the class... after the discussion... we went on to talk about ghost stories...

i started to get paranoid after ytd... 

tonight sarah is goin to overnight at fayt's house and im goin to slp alone... EH .. hope my imagination dont go wild... 

later going to watch terminator salvation.... AND I JUST CANT WAIT... heard from sarah tt it is a very nice movie.. and she watching again tonight with dear, me and koh... wat a spendthrift... 

PS: super DL!! going to retake UT because the school system is having problem!! ARGX!! 

oh and one more thing... dear told me that his colleague saw dear and me very often at bugis and orchard.. LOLX.... and she added the way dear dear was bside me is like he is totally indulge in my world... 

i was sooo felicity when i heard this... :) love dear dear 4ever!!






am i ? or am i not?? that dream set me thinking...




"If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me." -

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson


Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Learning python at home

Lesson 1! 

take the problem statement and worksheet from Joel. Thanks Joel ^.^

Chiong for the competition!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Tired and Busy

A tiring and busy day:

  1. java (rush to finish the code. And yes, I did it!! all by myself again! i think im the 1st person who know the code for the 2nd part.. SOO HAPPI!!)
  2. chiong ce ppt (chiong talk after sch)
  3. learn python's code for the competition 
  4. went out with dear after sch and watched " Night at the museum 2" ... i think it is boring!!! 






Busy schedule ahead:

 1.Competition (11.7) and faci's project


2. JAVA clinic

Date: 10 June 2009 (Wednesday)

Venue: W14A, W14B, W14C, W14D, W14E

Time: 2-4pm

3.Wushu camp ..YESH!!! =)

4. IG!! kick-boxing =D

5. chiong talk for CE

6.PP

7.study for UT

8. Training for Android and Python!! ( 3 sessions!! )





Tired now. Will stand up tml. A new day is a new start.




"The poorest man is not without a cent, but without a dream." - 

  -- Unknown

Is this quote suppose to be encouraging ? Because i heard of a story. That a korean guy died because of starvation or something like this. But he has millions in his bank!! the problem lies that he forgot his name. (He open the bank ac using his nickname and after some changes in the bank's system, the bank require the real name to withdraw!! )

When he is alive, he keep putting money inside. And tell his friends that someday he will buy a house!! and he is aware of his situation!!

He live to dream and died for his dream!  harsh reality is cruel!!!

He died because of his foolishness? or died for his dream?

Contemplating... 




Anyway here is my RJ for today : 



QUESTION: How do you feel about what you have learnt, and why?


I feel terrific and satisfied of what I had learnt. I learned that no matter what obstacles I face, I must overcome it and always keep a positive and never-give-up attitude in learning. Determination plays a very important role to achieve higher achievement too.

Because if I never try my best to do the codes, I will never know that I actually can do it. And I’m very happy that I learned the codes for the maximum number Oscars won for the movie. Thanks facilitator for his patient in teaching me at the end of lesson. 

In additional, being a clever person does not mean anything unless you share your knowledge with others and be a useful person. Therefore, after I finished my codes for the loop, I shared it with other groups and taught them. I feel a sense of satisfaction when I know my classmates learned new stuff from me. And it is also very challenging when they compete with me. 

Conclusion, we gain experience everyday and make mistake every day. Learn from mistakes and be a better person. Today, I gain new knowledge no matter in java or as a person; it is still very valuable to me.



Monday, May 25, 2009

Contemplating

code::XtremeApps:: 2009



Taken from : http://www.itsc.org.sg/codeXtremeApps2009.html

Wushu - kickboxing


Whole Body Aching After A Lesson! Fun!

wat a small small world


met up with joel at amk's interchange and went to library to study Python for Codes Xtreme Competition. So happy that our networking's faci willing to be our mentor for the competition. In additional, may be doing some projects for him too =) cant wait to earn some money !!

Anyway it is totally pack at the lirary therefore decided to go my house to study... On the way to mac to have dinner, saw samuel ( my ite's classmates ) then while we were chatting and walking, we saw Christopher ( ite's classmates ) HAHA wat a coincident!! Everyone is not the same after 2 yrs! Time pass fast!

Told u, time is cruel!! i dun wan to be old!!

After that, have dinner with joel at mac b4 heading for my house.... discuss and study and stuff b4 he left... 

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Melancholy



Time is cruel and it just wont stop.
It will just carry on ticking even a life is at stake. A life that is once so energetic and joyous...

Hospice. A place filled with deathbed

There he lay so quietly
Sleeping to ease the suffering
Visitors cried so painfully
Spoke reminiscently
Time yet to claim another human being - Sweetest Sinner


Man is harder than rock and more fragile than an egg. ~Yugoslav Proverb

Saturday, May 02, 2009

anxious

nthg much to update...

quite bored these few days cause no sch but hai hao cause aunty, cousin patrick, gina jie and ah boi overnite at house for 4 days 3 nights =D

i can feel the warmth of a family .... i love it alot... how i wish this can last eternally....

anyway dear dear came over too.. realli love him to bits... naughty n childish as always but i stil love him...keke...then he keep bully cherry haha sarah's precious doll... and sarah n i give him a very hard time by tickling him ...haha he like a monkey jump here n there haha... omg soooo cute...

ate alot tdy and im turning fat haha... the needle in the weighin machine gonna reach 55 kg liao sad..... ARG!!!

then just now talk to sap... she complain how she had a hard time tdy bcuz of client... she is opening new company ... and mayb im workin for her soon... bcuz her company still registering...

sooo look foward being a programmer and working with her keke....

And ya... tt faci finally give mi A!! arg wasted sia... my week 1 daily grade should b A he gave me B!! the girl which copy n paste my code got A!! he alr graded me B oso cannot change liao... but happy that he noe his mistake and grade mi reasonably...

hmm let mi see stil have wat to update... hmmm ...

i guess that it... or btw i soo lazy go find out wat is PP!! blah =x

KILL MI I DUN FEEL LIKE DOING PP LEI!!!!