it's gettin onto my nerves

I tried to get to sleep even though I dun feel tired...but I know I’m physically and mentally tired when I feel depress and the urge to eat something ...

So off I went to sleep at 11pm and woke up by a sms from my bf.. and I can’t get back to sleep... which is 130am... oh man ... this is frustrating

So I went to read twilight… I do not know why I’m having this conflict inside me… wanting to read and not wanting to read.

I’m going crazy

I hate myself… insomuch that I feel urm … never mind

Btw I hate people asking for an explanation on something that does not concern them … I don’t see how it is any of her business…

We don’t own anyone any explanation… want an answer then go find it yourself… don’t put others in such an awkward situation and make yourself a fool… pressing on for an answer that she knew she will never get a reply from the latter

Hatred is slowly building inside me … many reasons attribute to this … don’t ask

The more I think about it the more I feel like crying… almost cried out in bus this morning on the way home from East Coast Park …