idk

idk y sometime i feel this heartache inside me that i cant stand it.

how to describe it? it feels like im losing or missing something... feel something is amiss... but what is it exactly??? what is the cause of this infinite sorrow?

i have almost everything in life and i feel contented, and what exactly is it that i feel this way??

can someone tell me?

anyway today is the 1st day i learn how to play "happy birthday" on violin. i must practise till it sound good b4 performing on dear dear bdae party. gonna give dear dear a surprise =D