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Naruto

nthg to do so draw lo...

i dun feel like going out... i feel like doin more codes....i totally addicted to doing codes... :D

New blogskin

nice? create by myself de =) 

my 1st blogskin!!!!!

procrastination

YESH...ME = PROCRASTINATOR !!

• have not study for the upcoming UT
  
• have not do any for the competition bside...blah blah
• have not check abt the camp... 
• PP
• take pic from meiyan, zoe, winnie!!
• check my outlook!
• rtn library's books
  

going to be a very busy week for me... starting from 8.6.09 ... holiday mah chiam like not holiday... goin back to sch for lotsa of stuff!!  :(

anyway... went to vivo with dear dear tdy... n had a good chat at the lawn while eating the big fat juicy western bacon burger from carl jr... 

lol he actually dun mind whether anot i gt les fling... WTF!! lolx... 

I SMELL FREEDOM AND NEW LOVE!! 

lol just kidding.... after that went to buy candy and chocolate from Candy Empire then went home... oh and buy new jacket again... lol 

guessing who paying?? 

keke... of cuz dear dear la.. =D

thurs 4.6

meet up with shuhui and joel to do some preparation for the upcoming competition @ shuhui's (once a laughter aunty forever a laughter aunty - inside joke) house. 

the same old pattern... chat all the way... 

n yesh i soo goin to play L4D 2 and sim 3!! 

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thinking should i go club tml

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stupid me... of cuz not after i promise dear dear that i will not go club or pub without him!! argx... 

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not after i had that fu*king devastated smlj dream!! 

in that dream :

i was checking his handphone and i saw alot of pictures that he was hugging girls in what seem like Cafe Del Mar... (*haha i dun noe why Rion oso inside) 

anyway... i was soo angry and sad  that I throwed the bloody hp on the flr on the spo and scream imprudently for break up. I was crying soo hard in the dream!! soo lost n confuse!! 

and run all the way home and finally collapse on my room's flr

it feels like it is end of the world ... like heart stop beating... the world no longer hold any meaning to it.

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"The sun kept setting, setting still;
No hue of afternoon
Upon the village I perceived, --
From house to house 't was noon.

The dusk kept dropping, dropping still;
No dew upon the grass,
But only on my forehead stopped,
And wandered in my face.

My feet kept drowsing, drowsing still,
My fingers were awake;
Yet why so little sound myself
Unto my seeming make?

How well I knew the light before!
I could not see it now.
'T is dying, I am doing; but
I'm not afraid to know."

DYING 
BY 
Emily Dickinson 

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i woke up with a heavy heart and a pair of swollen eyes which is wet with tears. Eyes slowly get used to the outline of the furniture in the room and slowly my heart recovered.  But not totally as i 4ever got a protective heart over him.

So here come the rules to him... sry dear but im really afraid.

But thanks to the dream... i realised that dream is wat speak on behalf for my heart to me. A subconscious decision that i will not know till i dream.

I trust him from the beginning of the r/s. Going thru so many up and down with him. Yet after a dream which told me a possible scenario that might happened if i still do not care as much as i should care as a gf, i might lose him.

hold him so tightly b4 he went hm just now... how sad how pathetic i am for not trusting him...